struggleSo I was awake from 2am to 5am today, I am completely wasted…. I really need to get my sleep in check.  I just feel like I can’t wake up and my chest is sooooo sore.  I am really noticing a pattern between my fatigue and my pain levels.

So I have my business mentoring today, helping me set up things and do what I can while I cannot work.  Yes I know…. I struggle to stop and do nothing.  Then I took my daughter to the hairdresser and decided afterwards I will have a stress busting hot bath.  How nice!

I had a chat with an old work colleague today, it was lovely but I feel like I am so out of touch.  How am I ever going to get back into the swing of things.  I feel like my outlook on life and the way I even relate to things and to people is forever changed.

We have connect group tonight, it was lovely to connect with everyone and sits under God’s word with our connect group family.  It’s been hard continuing to run connect group with my illness and treatment but it has also blessed us so much.

We are planning Hawaii and it is beginning to feel real, how exciting!  I cannot believe it.  Soon we will be heading across the globe to sit on a beach and chillout…. Oh my it’s going to be great.

I am also noting today that the pain feels less controlling.  Ok, I’ve said it, I hope I haven’t jinxed myself.  I don’t understand why, maybe its just taking the time to allow things to settle.

I believe I will rest well tonight!