Bald Barren And Boobless

An honest and comical reflection of my journey through breast cancer

Month: August 2017

What a Night

nightBad night, one of our dogs was really restless, waking me every hour.  Then they tag teamed it and the other had awful diarrhea from 430.  I have been awake playing nurse to a dog since then…..

I had lunch with an old colleague today it was really nice to see her.  We used to work very closely together, before everything changed….

The I had some physio for my chest and was given some deep manual massage and pilates moves and stretches for my chest and hips.  The exercises get everything moving again post surgery and also help to build strength again.  This is not only for my recovery but forward planning for me so that when we get to Hawaii I can paddle board as I am dreaming to do.

Visited a dear friend today who lost their beloved dog, they were heart broken it was seriously like losing family.  Then up until late supporting the kids with various school projects. I am bone tired now and desperately need sleep.

Pain must be expressed

painmustWell I slept until midnight ( I got to sleep after 11), then was awake unitl 2am, dosed for 30 minutes then awake until 430am, then slept until 6.  Of course it is a Monday…….

I am catching up with a dear friend today for lunch and a movie.  To say I am looking forward to it is an understatement.  We saw “the fault in our stars” I bawled like a baby!!  Sad, heart breaking, beautiful.  A great quote “ Pain must be expressed”

This really spoke to me as I struggle to show this, is it because I see it as weakness, I feel too vulnerable, not capable….hmmmm so much for me to consider.

So whether it is constructive or not it needs to be expressed.  I have read a lot about pain (and even emotions) getting stuck in our body and causing illness.  It is so interesting, I mean emotion is energy, so why can’t it get stuck.  This is something for me to ponder further for sure….

I have a lot of pain in my hips and knees again tonight, I ended up taking Tramal to help.  This bone pain is not one of my favourites.  My Mum really struggled with this and ended up with bone cancer.  Today this doesn’t play on my mind would be lying…..