strengthI saw the physio today and got a few more exercises to focus on my large muscle groups this includes my legs my stomach and my back. I didn’t know this but these muscle groups lose strength during chronic illness.  I also didn’t know that general anesthetic also causes you to turn off your core muscles. All of these things that make the recovery process so much harder.

Interestingly, all things that my specialists and medical doctors have not told me about.  It is almost like, we’ve cut, poisoned and medicated you, what else is there?  Whether they don’t know I am not sure, but it seems critical to me recovering.  The session felt good. Ideally I should do the exercises every day and a minimum two times a week. I already feel more empowered.

The physio Matt warned me that it takes 4 to 6 weeks to get the cortisol and chemo toxins out of the muscles after the workout starts. He also said this could make me feel really sore, tired and achy.  I already feel like this so I potentially will feel worse. At least I know what I’m aiming for.

I still have my friend “the cold”, I’m still having hot flushes every few moments and aching and tired. I just want to go to bed, to forget about the world, but we have dinner with some old friends tonight I’m sure I will feel better after this.

I know it feels easier to hide away but these connections are really important.  I need to remind myself that life is more than dragging myself trough each day.