I had a better night’s sleep. I woke okay with some aches and pains and really tight muscles. I’m so sorry if it sounds like I’m whinging, but I’m really trying to give you a real picture of what this is like. Not only for the benefit of someone going through this, but also for the people around that person to know exactly what it’s like.
I think a lot of people are like me and don’t really share with many people what this journey is really like. A brave face is what they wear everyday. Whilst this may help people in the short term, in the long-term everyone loses because you don’t get the true support and understanding that you need.
It’s also really unfair on the people in your world who are trying to support you but can’t when they don’t know the truth about your situation.
Today I had a really bad chemo brain. It is a shocker. I actually tried to lock the house with the car remote. I stood there for such a long time pressing the button and wondering why the door would not lock. When I realised what I was doing I just shook my head and walked away.
The day really slid downhill from there in terms of my brainpower. I met a friend for coffee and had a mentoring session that left me feeling more inspired. After that I took the dog for a walk and some lovely friends from church came and visited.
I got an email from Business Chicks to say that they would like to run an article on my story. I am really excited about this opportunity. How awesome to be able to share with other business women about my experience.
How amazing to share my struggles and my story so that they at least can learn from my mistakes. At the very least, encouraging women to ensure that they have health and income insurance in place.
It’s also Connect Group night tonight. I am back in your arms Lord, being held in prayer is such as safe and beautiful place. I begin to take the dexamphetamine again. It’s time to prepare for the next round of chemo. Yay!
The dexamphetamines kept me awake until 4:30 AM, as you can imagine I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck. I think tomorrow is going to be a slow day.