worldmovesI did not sleep well again, I think it is my new normal, sorry for the whinging…

I was awake from 2am to 5am this time.  Thanks goodness for recorded TV.  The Block is saving my sanity…

I am so exhausted today, I saw my GP and she prescribed me some more pain meds.  I am so glad they are listening and supporting me as my breast surgeon said he would not give me anything as it should not be this bad.  Like I am milking them for drugs or something…

My GP gave me stillnox for sleep, I am a little nervous as there is some really worrying info about this drug, I will be very careful and if anything weird happens I will not take it.  I had acupuncture too and it helped with all of the swelling, she said my liver is struggling and so is my immune system so she gave me some support for that.

She encouraged me to remember to look after me, to slow down and take time to do things that nourish me.  Man, I don’t even know what that would be…Here we go on another walk down self discovery lane…

I also had a talk with my man, I am really concerned about him.  Work that was quite supportive has forgotten and are expecting far too much from him.  He gets it done but at such a personal cost.  I realize that others move on but we are still in the midst of this battle, it is still very real for us.

I am concerned he is avoiding his emotions by working a lot and I just want him to know that he can talk to me, and if he cannot then he needs to find someone it is too much to go through alone.  What a ride…