Bald Barren And Boobless

An honest and comical reflection of my journey through breast cancer

Tag: exercise

I Am So Over Chemo!!!!!

no_energyThe day started off really slow.  I got the kids off to school, did some shopping and then I literally hit the wall.  I am as flat as a flat thing.  I am craving sugar, I feel sick, I’m so hot and bothered.  To top it off, the pain in my joints is unbelievable.

I wanted to go for a walk, I know it’s good for me, but I just couldn’t do it.  It’s a miracle though, I managed to cook dinner and we have Connect Group at our home tonight.  I really don’t feel like I have the energy to see anyone, but I know it will be worth it.

I’ve never felt so empty, so drained, so emotionally numb.  It sounds horrible but I almost wish my body was numb.  It’s such a weird situation when your emotions are not there, you’re so tired you can’t feel anything but there’s so much pain and discomfort in your body.

I pray for anyone who goes through this treatment or any other type of illness where you are in such pain on a long-term basis.  I really don’t know how you do it and you are my hero.

Just Walking the Dog

DogWalkingI slept okay and Marc left early this morning. I have decided to try some light exercise today after school drop-off. I walked our pup down to the chemist and back, my new best friend. This was her first walk an important milestone. There’s a long way from both of us to go yet but it was great.

I am committing to walking my pup  every second day and then building up to daily.  I need to do this for both hers and my benefit.  She has so much energy, and needs to use it.  I have none but know walking will help me feel better and also help get all of the toxins out of my system.  Besides what could be better than walking in the sunshine, puppy bouncing by my side???

I met two people on the way to chat to; it’s amazing how interesting puppy makes you. When I got home I stretched and then did some errands, these things never seem to end.

I slept for two hours this afternoon and tonight I see Peter Walsh with my sister-in-law.  You know Oprah’s go to de-clutter guy? if you don’t know who he is check him out here.  Don’t know how late this will go but we’ll see, I’m excited to be going out and doing something fun. I’m quite sore after my walk but it’s a start.

I feel I’m ripe for a de clutter moment.  It’s funny how when your life is put on “hold” how much crap builds up, then it just seems to grow and take on a life of its own…..  Maybe I should adopt Peter?

So, tonight we actually met Peter Walsh, what an awesome guy! We were in the upstairs lobby and he walked straight up to us like he knew us and said “hi” to my sister in law. Now she’s in love with him, with de cluttering and all things organisational so she nearly fainted. He said a name that was not hers. She politely said her name was Alison and he said, “wow you are the spitting image of one of my best friends”

Totally made her night, and why not!

How bizarre…. her doppelgänger is her decluttering idols bestie.

It was a great night out. It felt good to do something normal like go out. So simple but it has not been a part of my life for months now.  I need to try and do some more of this when I feel up to it.  I am sure it will help me get better and back to the land of the normal, whatever that is….