blackmoodThis bloody cold is still hanging on, so annoying! My mood is also still all over the place, I really don’t know what to do about it. It can’t be PMT because my cycle has been stopped by the medication. Is this part of menopause?

I went and saw the accountant today, this is one of my most feared activities. I’ve had so many issues with the ATO over the years that the idea of seeing an accountant strikes fear in my heart. Thankfully the appointment went well.

We are trying to plan some holidays to ensure that we have some quality time. That’s been a real struggle. I hope it’s not because no one wants to spend time with such an angry Bear of a woman. Sometimes I even want to run away from myself and how on earth do you do that?

I’m still having awful hot flashes, no energy, achy body, forgetful brain and horrible black moods.  Seriously, I would not wish this on my worst enemy. I keep reading that I need to take it one day the time, I see this and I understand this but it’s really hard not to project these horrible days into the future and wonder what it is all for.  If I can’t stand myself, why should anyone else?