I had a good sleep. As I wake I realise it’s a beautiful rainy Saturday. I love those days where you don’t have to rush out of bed, and you know you can stay in it to warm to and enjoy the day.
Marc is at work this morning. I get out of bed, finally, and start pottering about. I take Sam to the shops and run errands. When I get home I’m completely exhausted. I feel so overwhelmed, and then get really snappy with Marc. I know this isn’t fair, and I’m really sorry. He understands, as he usually does. Man I am so blessed.
We have some lunch. I decide to make a cake as our good friends are coming to visit this afternoon. I made my famous wheat, dairy and sugar free chocolate cake. I know you are saying, “What the heck has it got in it?”. But trust me, it is beautiful. One day I’ll share the recipe with you.
We had a lovely afternoon catching up with our friends, which was great. Since I got sick so many friends have stayed away, yet many have stepped up and ensured that we stay connected. I really appreciate this.
I don’t blame anyone, many people struggle to know what to say and how to be around someone when they are sick. Can I just encourage you though, it is so much better to say how you feel and support them anyway. Otherwise chronic illness is a very lonely place.
Sam goes to a friend’s house for a sleepover, Marc and I have a lovely dinner together and watch a movie. We decide on a comedy, there’s too much seriousness in our life at the moment.
We laugh ourselves silly until our tummies hurt. It’s just so fun to let go, forget whatever’s happening in your own life, and laugh. It was such a lovely night. They do say the simple things……
I wake after an average sleep, today I see my Oncologist. In general my doctor is really happy. She says my white cells are low, but manageable. She explains that my body has handled the chemotherapy relatively well. I put this down to being so meticulous with my diet.
I’ve tried so hard to nourish my body with good food and rest. I haven’t been perfect at this but I’ve given it a great shot. Because I’ve handled the chemotherapy so well my doctor thinks we can move my second surgery forward to the end of April, instead of June. This means I will have my second breast removed and begin the reconstructive process at this time. I’m also considering having my ovaries removed as the tumours were oestrogen driven.
This afternoon we get more questions from our Insurer about my claim for financial support. They are questioning whether or not I knew that cancer was present before I put in a claim. We know this is the insurance companies job to question every aspect, but the idea that they are questioning my integrity really, really hurts.
All I can do is give this to God and believe that He has it in his hands. Tonight we were with our amazing Connect Group from church. It was such an amazing and supportive night. The importance of being surrounded by such positive, uplifting and supportive friends is beyond words. God you are so gracious and loving it is beyond my words to explain how much you mean to me. Your Love alone can move mountains. I am so glad I can share this very big, very ugly, very immoveable mountain with You.