Another excellent church service, they always speak to me in a way that I need to hear which is such a gift. I come home after church and need to sleep as I’m exhausted. Denmark wakes me at 5 o’clock. I’m so exhausted. I can’t believe more than five hours has passed and I really don’t want to get out of bed.
But it’s our Sunday night family dinner so I need to get up. My sister-in-law comes to dinner with her beautiful girl Eliza. Alison, beautiful girl, does my ironing, what an absolute blessing. At first I really struggled with her helping like this, but then as the exhaustion set in, over time I stopped fighting. I literally didn’t have the energy.
After dinner my entire body is aching, I’m sore, can’t think straight, blinking is hard, and all I can think about is bed. I really can’t explain to you just how tired I feel. It is like a beast I’ve never experienced before.
I feel some guilt as I struggle to spend quality time with my family. This was always something that was so important to me yet being so exhausted I can’t keep my eyes open. I’m not even listening when people speak to me because I’m so preoccupied with the pain I feel. How on earth am I meant to live like this?
So I crawl into bed praying that tomorrow is a better day. It’s my man’s birthday tomorrow, I pray that he is blessed and feels loved as much as we really love him.