painI didn’t sleep very well at all what a horrible night with that drain pain. I really cannot tell you just how bad it is. So I am up and walking today but I am totally stuffed.

I go to get dressed and the drain is leaking again, I head back to the plastic surgeon to get unblocked. Man this is frustrating. I spend the rest of the day in bed my chest is so sore it’s just not funny.

I managed to walk baby because I believe it’s good for us both. Sam has a few of his mates over to hang out and play Xbox.  He so needs some normality at the moment.  I remember how I felt as a kid seeing my mum in pain it’s such a helpless feeling. I really don’t want to pass this onto Sam but I don’t know what else to do.

I am asking my Lord for the grace to lean into this give it to him and take one step at a time.